My last post was published on January 29th, 2014, which was 4 months ago. And on my last post I wrote that one of my resolutions was to be an active blogger and not to neglect my blog. Seems like someone just broke her resolution eh?

So lemme tell you something, last February I actually made a special post for Chinese New Year. My friends helped me by taking my pictures of my Chinese New Year outfit and I already uploaded it but my laptop was acting up and the wifi connection wasn't being supportive so that post is now stuck in my draft. I just fixed my laptop and i have a good wifi connection at the moment, but don't you think it's just too late to do a Chinese New Year outfit post? so I'm keeping it and have no idea when will i publish it.

Anyways... I am finally done with middle school. Well, almost actually. I had my National Exams few weeks ago (early May) and now I don't have to go to school anymore. I am relieved because I don't have to wake up early in the morning anymore and go to school, but I'm also anxious waiting for the results to be announced. All I can do now is only pray and hope for the best. I am also pretty excited and anxious about High School. I named this post 'Post Natinal Exams Chaotic' because, basically after I finished all the exams I constantly having this weird feelings. Feeling of relieved, anxious, happy, sad, confused.. It's like there's a chaos inside  of me and it's actualy hard to tell what am I feeling right now. I have butterflies and that feeling of being stabbed in the chest and I can't even talk about it out loud. It feels like I am being choked. 

I am trying my best to distract myself from these weird feelings that I am sure is caused by this whole exams and high school and decisions that i have to make stuffs but I just can't. I can't listen to a song for more than 5 seconds, I can't sit through a tv show episode, I can't finish a book, I can't write anything, I can't focus on anything but stare blankly at the wall and let these scary thoughts haunting my mind, letting the fear of making decisions getting into me and wish I had something to do but everything I could do or want to do is just supremely unsatisfying.

I constanly feels like I lost something, but I have no idea what it is. It's Muse I guess?

Whatever it is, I just want it to come back to me and make me feel... complete?

Song of the Week : You - The 1975

Movie of the Month : Godzilla (I just watched it yesterday with my brother and surprisingly.. I liked it! Review coming soon)

Book of the Month : The Maze Runner (review coming soon)

on a happier and cheer-ier note, I dip dyed my hair few weeks ago and went to singapore with my classmates. I will make a post about it soon and here's a selfie of me and my dipdyed hair! and yep I dipdyed my hair by using Manic Panic Infra Red Classic