So, I made a post about change couple of weeks ago. The change that I was talking about on that post is basically about the environmental change or change of surrounding that I was facing due to moving to Singapore and also further life goals or bucketlists of some sort. This time, I'm gonna talk about a lifestyle change.
I spent most of my free times being on the internet, which is not a secret anymore. I watched tons of videos on youtube, creepin through people's instagrams, and whatnots. And during these creepin sesh I stumbled upon so many profiles that have the word 'vegan' alongside with plants or fruit emojis attached on their profile. I saw their instagram feeds and I swear all of their foods are so colourful, vibrant, and look very appetizing. So I started to watch lots of vegan recipes videos on youtube, then it lead me to what i eat in a day videos, then it eventually lead me to tons of inspirational speeches about veganism, and also this documentary called, Earthling.
Earthling definitely opened my eyes to all these horrible things that are going on in this world but are still justified because of the amount of dollars that they're getting from commiting such fallacy. So, right after watching the documentary, I decided that I want to be a vegan. I don't want to contribute in this cruelty act anymore. I turned vegan overnight. Cold-turkey.
Tuesday, 24 November 2015. It was my first day of my vegan journey. I had my used to be favourite raisin loaf for breakfast. In fact, I had that loaf for breakfast for 3 days straight, and sometimes I had it too for snacks in between meals. Everything went well at first then, on the 3rd night, I was reading the ingredients list of the raisin loaf out of boredom and turns out, the loaf contains milk powder. I felt so horrible. I was so disappointed at myself. It's not even a week and I already failed. I was so confused and frustrated. Am I still vegan? Should I start over? Am I a hypocrite? My mind was all over the place and I ended up having cereal and soy milk for breakfast, lunch, and dinner for the rest of the week because I was so stressed out to the point I couldn't be bothered to cook or be productive (stop creating excuses, nurra!!!).
Few days after the I-found-out-I-Just-had-calves'-food-incident, I found a channel run by a girl called, Nilu Cooper. I watched her first video called 'MY TIPS FOR GOING VEGAN' and in the video she mentioned about how it's the intention that matters the most. It's all about intention, not perfection. and it relieved me. I'm a human, and human makes mistakes. I promise that I'm gonna try my best to NOT incorporate any animal products on my diet and to not participate in animal cruelty, but if I do it accidentally or I wasn't aware of it I won't be so hard on myself just like what I did to myself after finding out about that milk in my raisin loaf because, its not healthy and someone told me that if I commit a mistake and I know that I just made one, that proves that I'm actually trying, which is good.
